Je me sens comme ma vie commence à faire le sens. Il reste beaucoup de problèmes mais alors, je ne sais pas :s
Aujourd’hui, j’ai regardé un vlog par nadine ( http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tc1F64NX4kc ) et ça c’est quand j’ai réalisé, il y a deux possibilités de faire les choses. Tu peux voir ta vie et sois comme « c’est la vie » et l’endure, ou tu peux voir ta vie et sois comme « je ne l’aime pas, je vais le recommencer ». moi, je ne sais pas quoi faire. En ce moment, je l’endure. Je ne sais pas si c’est possible pour moi parce que Queens est mon troisième recommencement. Au début, c’était Turi, et on sait comment il allait… et après ça, CIC, mais avec CIC, je ne sais pas si c’était un succès ou un échec… et maintenant, Queens. Un échec dans tous les façons possibles! J’ai failli ne pas avoir les amis, mes grades ne sont pas le meilleur, et je suis misérable. Donc, PAS misérable exactement, mais presque de ça. c’est ma vie et je l’endure.
À Turi, je pensais que ma vie horrible était la faute des autres, à cic, j’ai commencé de me demander si c’est ma faute, et maintenant je sais qu’il y a un problème social avec moi, et je ne sais pas comment le fixer. Lorsque je le fixe, je peux recommencer pour la dernière fois
Mais je ne sais pas comment me fixer…. je ne sais pas comment commencer et quoi faire parce que je m’aime. J’aime ce qui je suis en ce moment, mais n’importe ou je vais, je presque de rien des amis! Peut-être c’est quelque chose je dis, ou je fais… je ne sais pas !
OK, le titre: Qui s’y frotte s’y pique
| Quand on prend le risque de s’attaquer à quelqu’un ou de côtoyer un danger, on s’en repent.
était la devise des Ducs d’Orléans. Elle fut conservée par le roi de France Louis XII. Elle était associée au symbole du porc-épic. Elle signifie que si on le provoque, on se piquera sur ses épines. |
ah oauis! le premier ligne que j’ai écrit.
C’est juste que je sais que je veux faire un majeur en la Chimie, et je pense que j’ai un place de vivre la trimestre prochaine e.t.c mais je ne sais pas si je suis heureux, si je suis aux anges….
Puisque je vais aller à un université diffèrent pour l’été, peut-être je vais trouver chez moi…
je veux recommencer… et je veux être heureux…
It has been a while since I wrote, so i suppose i should update everyone 
On New Years Eve, me and my family did the whole family thing we sat down, watched TV, prayed as a family and made a promise to try and get closer to God, especially after all that he has given us. The Lord is amazing is he not?
On New Years Day, my family and I went for a nice fancy lunch buffet with Claire and her family it was fun! hehe
After all that, we flew to the US, I got my drivers liscence (FINALLY) and then I flew to canada and stayed with Priyé for like one day 
it was fuuuun hehe and i mooched off him like the douchebag i am
Then school retsrated. for the first week, i was ahead of all my classes and stuff, it felt pretty decent!!! reading ahead is addictive, except i started to fall behind in some subjects as the semester continued… i am ahead in maths and maths (YAAAAY) , french, geo and chem seem to hav taken a back seat to my two maths classes. i am doing a chem focus this week, though i need to also give myself time for a french focus and for a geo focus.. midterms are so soon,,, and so is MY BIRTHDAYYYYYY
my cousin in in CANADA!!!! i am so exciiiiiited
my whole family seems to be moving to canada (or theUS yeuchhhhh) but in a few generations the whole family will be canadian, me = so excited
i also have to decide which university i want to go to for the summer!!!!
UPEI, Acadia, Memorial, University fo Manitoba… oh the excitement i want UPEI though *_*
well, thats been a quick updaaate
mwaaah
dans ma publication prochaine, je vais écrire en français, mais en ce moment, je me sens un peu paresseux lol
It has been the longest of whiles but I am back in UGANDA!!!!
It is interesting being back in Africa after so long of reminiscing! AND UGANDA NOW HAS AN AIRLINE!!!! so many changes!!!! O_o so exciting. I lost contact with most of my friends from Uganda (due to me leaving Uganda when I was 12) but ah well, still feels good to be back.
I am irked though because my dad moved into an apartment, which so sucks…. i wanted a HOUSE. oh well…. anyway the weather is hot (duh) but it has been raining for the past two days 
unfortunate yes?
Anyway I leave on the second. Now I suppose I should describe my journey back to Uganda?
It all started in Toronto…. I was at Toronto Pearson International Airport grabbing a flight with طيران الإمارات (Emirates)
and at the airport i met TOBI!!! and amsi! they were using the same flight, I also made a new friend from Queens, though I cannot remember his name. He was flying back to his home country of Bangladesh! how awesome! we were chatting and stuff and I essentially had fun, such a shame our seats were so far away from each other on the plane! sigh….
Afterwards when we landed, i hung out with the bangladeshi guy for a moment before we went our seperate ways, me to my five star hotel (dubai international hotel – located inside the airport). now i know i made that sound easy but … it wasnt! it was HELL!!!!
I got lost so many times and the information daddy gave me applied only to those above 18 e.t.c. It was SO IRKSOME!!! i wondered around the airport for two hours before finding my hotel! but it so was worth it once i found it! I had a double bed, a plasma TV, FREE WI-FI, i was right above the duty free stores, OMG it was awesomeeeee
then the next day i grabbed the flight to Uganda, though we had a stop over in Ethiopia. the pilot sounded like it was his first flight ever lol, but i liked him though i never saw himm but he seemed like an interesting guy and BOOYAAAANHHHHH
uganda.
i leave jan 2nd
Dans l’avoin (l’avion que j’ai utilise de retourner en Ouganda) j’ai regarde beacoup de films en francais. Je ne sais pas pourquoi mais j’ai compris tous! je suis tres contente de ca! les lecons a Queens ont ete utile!!!!! hehehehe
Semester (la trimestre): Over (fini), Exams (les examens): Underway (en cours), Update (la mise a jour): ?
Now I know I should be studying for maths, but not everything is clear cut. I attempted to (i really did) and woke up an hour late 
so i figured i might as well wake myself up by blogging, not the worst idea yes?
Anyway my first semester at Queen’s University is over and I think back, and wonder, has university been enlightening and whatnot…. the answer is no, not really haha! the only thing i have been enlightened on is the complexity of french grammar hahahah! but being absolutely serious, thanks to Queen’s, i am forming decisions about my life. Queen’s is an amazing university with so much to offer! it has amazing resources, excellent professors!!! and amazing people. I have made some good friends (if only i could chill with them more but due to my lack of a mobile phone, contact is near impossible). I may have had the misfortune of being put in the wrong floor (a floor filled with potheads and partyholics) but i do know that i would have met some awesome people if put on a different floor with people more my type, like this floor i met where this dude called amin stayed (in vic hall) or the floor that this dude called phillipe stays. people seem more down to earth there…
anyway rather than complaining, i am seeing the positive. I have never felt so sure of the future and i am so happy with the friends I have made, because i do see them in class if no where else.
I am also grateful to my friends who have stayed in touch; I have been amazingly lazy when it comes to replying messages on faceb0ok or by email and people hassle me to reply them. i feel both missed and loved.
ofcourse from the last time i wrote, friendships have been brocken and new ones have been formed. I wont state which is which simply because i need not alert those to whom i dislike now that i dislike them, i feel that thier ignorance shall be an advantage for me because i am such a moocher and you cant mooch off of those who know you dislike them.
Yesterday i was on facebook with vanessa (shocking right? )
I have been having fun, depression definately lifted. It is currenty exam season and I am dne with french grammer, french litterature and chemistry. that leaves maths, biology and geography, to which i am immensly nervous simply because of time constraints and i HATE studying maths and bio, and i have never studied for geo, so i have no clue where to begin sigh…. amd Prof Lovell was such a marvellous teacher, i MUST pass his class.
I have re-edited my 50-year plan, and i am still looking for my next home. It is so hard to find the culture you belong in sometimes, but i intend to do it soon and settle there. clearly, i am not meant to be an Ontarian, but, I have been advised to check out other provinces and i definately wanna go on an exchange to ireland or nothern ireland to see if i fit in there.
I am going to have like the most hectic xmas ever… i will spend most of it in the air!!!!
oh, and i am applying for another job, my job at QP ended.
reason?: i was working with two slobs who enjoy shortcuts, something i dislike with great intensity. one of them was hassling me for being « slow » because i was doing things the proper way and so we get into an argument, now you know i never use foul language but the next day the head honcho fires me without asking for my side of the story. i have a feeling it is to do with him and the head boss actually being friends and me not having that privilege. anyway its just sad because for once they had a serious worker and they threw him away. thats the problem with « student run ». its never logic that dictates actions, its emotions. anyway so from now on i pretend like i never worked there, like the job never happened
and i found a new perfect job
wish me luck in getting it!!!
I was originally planning to write in french but i dont have my french keyboard so its just easier to type in english sigh….
hey, when listening to the song « jai ho » the pussycat doll version, pay attention to how the indian guy says « jai ho » and how the pussycat dolls say it i laughed when i noticed…. sigh… americans and thier ignorance/intolerance/stupidity….
OK, i think I am awake enough now, maybe i can move onto studying maths
p.s. KSENIA SENT ME A UNIVERSITY OF ALBERTA HOODIE!!! and it looks preeeeety
i recently got myself addicted to trueblood…. its such a good show, and the romance is AMAZING!!!
that is one sexy picture huh?
I am way too much of a romance addict loooool
sigh… procrastination is so much fun, if only it helped….
Tomorrow is a new semester (well not literally, but you know what I mean) and i am curious as to the new magic that shall mold me some more, i am curious as to the beauty that shall increase my mind, and I am curious as to the drama i will cause 
a bientot
not that i watch gossip girl (i dont) but in the few random episodes i have seen, me and him seem to have similar personalities, its quite intriguing, similar names (Chuck Bass) and similar personalities. hm…..
xoxo (hahahahahah i so had to do that!!!!)
I suppose I should show my true self…. it is quite an interesting concept… but before I start on that, i’ll just do an update…
I really have this habit of making friends with the most unlikely people… my actual friends are a pothead, a macho farmboy, a sport-obsessed girl, a to-be alcoholic and a party girl…. tey just don’t seem my type do they? but they are all really awesome people!
pothead: Suzanne: She isn’t addicted or anything but she does it recreationally. Anyway Suzanne is this really sweet person who is just so mellow, she takes my childishness and craziness in like a sponge and i just feel so comfortable around her. she is such an awesome person to chat with and i just enjoy her company in general. if things go well, we might end u realy close friends (unless i screw it up with my stupid mood swings sigh….)
macho farmboy: Scott: The first time I met him, he was really quiet the whole time. It was me, mitch, kenzie, katelyn (asian descent one),and scott had just arrived on campus, missing move-in day and stuff, and he seemed so awkward because he was not with the most masculine crowd in the world lol. well, at least it seemed that way, it is easy to make assumptions innit? anyway you know how i am, i talk to everyone (probably a bad habit i have) and it turns out scott is a really cool guy and really open minded. he deals with my craziness and adds on his own lol!! i swear if me and him team up, we could get someone to commit suicide >:) we have the most random deep coversations and then the most random wicked banters…. such awesomeness. He could be a really close friend. not to mention he so meets all my high school criteria (unique, independant, strong willed, cocky, self confident, good looking, open minded, no weed, no excessive drinking, no cigarettes)!!!! i really hope this friendship is maintained and grows…
sport-obsessed girl: Mackenzie: Really wild tempered « speak my mind » kind of girl, allergic to everything she always retaliates and has a reaction to my craziness yet doesnt seem to want me changed…. she seems cool, i do not see me and her becoming best friends but i can see us being good friends that can hang out occassionally. she is like obsessed with the gym and gymnastics and all that stuff and i am super lazy, yet the friendshp still works
to be alcoholic: Eric: heheheheh, he loves beer like hell haha! but he is a really cool chap, and i find it interesting that he stuck by me even when everyone hated me thanks to a certain rumour bearing skank, but he is a lot more open minded and noncholant. he just is not bothered to be believing the grape vine. he speaks french too (hehehehehhehe that was a huge plus in my book!) . really cool dude though and he adds on to my craziness with his own haha!
party girl: Nadene: well that is not technically true. she studies like hell 6 days a week, but when she does go out to party, she goes WWIIIILLLLDDDDDDDD and it is so cool haha! but she is really nice and friendly though i need to get used to her type of friendship because she sometimes does things that i dont expect friends to do like leaving me when i am still eating though she sees nothing wrong with it O_o but she seems to honestly be my friend, so i am intrigued.
then there is the endless list of people i smile and wave at and basically make them believe i am a retard. i bet like half the people i have met ask how i got into Queen’s haha! its so unique. i honestly deteste them though. they are not worth my time, but that is something about me that no one here has seen so far, i enjoy playing mental games, and so far they seem to have fallen for it. i am apparently the stereotypical 13 year old indiotic perverted kid and they seem to be licking it up hand and foot like brainless idiots! it is quite entertaining thoiugh because i now honestly know thier weakpoints, the easiest way to make them hate themselves heheheh. being absolutely serious though, i am getting bored of playing games with them and pretending to be weak but i do have a feeling it is more beneficial for me to appear weak, even though i know i will be the top at the end… i am confused… what is better? to pretend to be the underdog or to be the top dog the whole way through? i have no clue…
ah well, hence why i need Priveeta’s and Anna’s advice
i started work at the QP
EVERYONE IS SO AWESOME!!!! like i LOVE it!!!! tey make me feel so accepted and loved and stuff! and i feel really good being around the other staff basically, because even when they are not talking to me, they make me feel included.
i think it is just my unique luck that got me onto the kost retarded floor in Queens. the floor with the closed minded idiots who would get massacred if they even left the province of ontario, let alone Canada haha! sigh, i should probably go to sleep and wake up for another day of smile, wave and feigning weakness and stupidity for the fools to lap up like pussywhipped dogs drinking poisoned milk
g’nyt….
| % | |
|---|---|
| Openness | 63% |
| Conscientiousness | 69% |
| Extraversion | 66% |
| Agreeableness | 41% |
| Neuroticism | 63% |
I have actually been having the best time here in university which is really worrying me because something will screw it up… sigh but ah wellll. I saved my roommates life two days ago. w00t me. he was on the floor of our bathroom vomiting on himself and passed out. I got paul to help me carry him and move him to his bed…. i cannot believe drew did something so undignified… ah well. he is entering politics…. bad move lol. i have been considering course changes.
i am trying to think of if i should swithch out of environmental tox to chem… i have met NOONE doing a chem degree which means it isnt common and that sounds tempting to me lol. plus Ali (the indian dude) is considering getting into eTox which is such a turn off loool. i just am kinda depressed at that. you know how i like to be special but on the pther hand i really should get out of that habit. but ah well, i really like chemistry, as odd as that sounds yet i also like lots of artsy subjects.,.. so i dunno what to do…. but i wanna double check on my courses coz i wanna drop geo next semester…. but that means environmental ya kno???? and iu need to do physics to get a chem degree which is such a turn off!!!! arghhhhh
anyway ignoring my absolute randomness haha! i am fancying two people…. hm… i just wonder if i should act on it because i dont see myself with these people for more than a few months at most…. like each one brings out a diff side of me. one brimngs out my super playful baby-me side, the other brings out the » i am an absolute heartless b!tch » side, both sides i love about me but neither side is the complete me…. sigh
i wanna have a cic reunion., i miss some old friends…. which is awesome, I HAVE FRIENDSS HAHAHAHAHHA
yeh turi was a bad life experience….
anyway back to joy. I GOT THE JOB AT THE QUEEN’S PUB!!!!!!!! EEEEKKKKKKKKKKKK SO HAPPPYYYYYY
but now i need to apply for a S.I.N which is really annoying…. sigh… i wish i was canadian… ah well, just 4 more years to wait….
by the way, i said i would write a report on canucks… i will do that later,like after i have visited other [rovinces, because like i said, ontario is like mini-canadian-USA… which is rather crappy so i cant be bothered with such.
by the way: FRENCH HAS WAAAY TOO MANY RAMMER RULKES
il y a les regles avec les choses comme l’ article defini, partitif, indefini… mon Dieu, je ne sais pas quoi je vais faire! je ne sais pas si c’ est possible pour moi d’ apprendre…. et je ne sais pas si ce phrase est correct lol. mais , alors, elle reste une belle langue donc, je dois d’aller… la chimie…. a bientot
PLUS TARD
je suis en classe de geographie… donc je ne suis pas « high on euphoria » comme l’heure avant. ca c’est parce que dans la chimie, je me suis assis pres de le cousin de MacKenzie, mais alors, je n’ aie pas les perssonnes que je sais ne m’ aime pas… donc j’etais enerve lol. mais c’ est tout. mon prof de gepographie est, comme normal, aleatoires lol!!!! maintenant, il parle de « pink spots » …..
It has been another week here at Queen’s Univeristy, and it has not been as bad. I stayed for thanksgiving though the campus was practically empty and it was awesomeness. I remembered why I fell in love with Queen’s in the first place. the weather was gorgeous, I was includedwhenever the 5 remaining people on my floor did stuff, and I befriended one of Eric’s friends (a dude called Vince) who seemed really cool.
Zach scared me the whole weekend. he was drunk like the whole weekend so I avoided him the whole time. That boy gives in waaay to much to his indulgncies. He drinks, he does weed, and worst: he is homophobic… ARGH. Whenever drinks, he gets drunks . I believed i became friends with Paul, though now everyone is back, he doenst really talk to me anymore so whatever… not bothered.
Kumar is another case. DETEST. essentialy, last week thursday i was as sick as a whore in an exorcism! Kumar did not help at all! He was around in res, while I walked towards my job interviews and hospital and stuff, he did not even help me walk there. When I was back, he did not chill with me to make sure I was OK or even just to make me feel better: USELESS INSESITIVE DOUCHE-COW!!!!! argh…. ah well. i suppose i should switch to « smile and wave » mode with him
ANyway it has been a good week. I have been around friends, they have been good to me e.t.c. and even though i am just smile-wave with Zach, Kumar and a few people i am enjoying life again lets hope this keeps up
plus i have a love interest…. more news if it progresses
this week has been rough for the self-esteem…
Other than having my phone cancelled by Britneyś parents and being threatened with fraud, i also missed a class by accident, forgot my bag before french class, and essentially slacked off a bit. I am so tired and i am feeling so overworked, i mean how on earth can i mention to Kumar that i did not bring a change of underwear because i did not think of doing such??? the weather i feel has been against me… oh gosh….
the maths test did not go badly but i would rather see my mark before i comment et le test de français n’a pas été mal… mais alors encore, je veux attendre pour mes résults avant je commente.
I am sleeping over at Kumar’s place today, i need a good time away from uni just to…. take a breather.
I love Queen’s and i do not regret my choice, i just do, however, wish i was managing things better.
wow ça fait longtemps que j’ai ecris! je dois l’écrire en français parce que j’ai un test de français demain et je veux pratiquer, mais alors, je ne sais pas si c’est possible d’étudier un langue… j’ai essayé mais alors…. donc. il y a beaucoup de choses nouveux que j’apprenais de le passé composé! les choses comme le verbes transifs et les verbes intransitifs… mon Dieu, j’ai mal à la tête…. et JE UN TEST DE ÇA DEMAIN!!!! comment puis-je suvivre? mais donc, ce ma vie ouais?
Kumar et moi, on reste les amis, mais il m’a menti, son vrai nom n’est pas « Horoprosag », c’est juste « Prosad ». je hais quand quelqu’un me ment. zut, d’écrire en français, le français correct et vrai M’ENEERVE!!!! c’est lent et fastidieux! je pense que je vais écrire quelqu’autre chose demain en ANGLAIS!!! ouais, ma première langue!
esperez-moi de chance parce que je l’ai besoin
