I suppose I should show my true self…. it is quite an interesting concept… but before I start on that, i’ll just do an update…

I really have this habit of making friends with the most unlikely people… my actual friends are a pothead, a macho farmboy, a sport-obsessed girl, a to-be alcoholic and a party girl…. tey just don’t seem my type do they? but they are all really awesome people!

pothead: Suzanne: She isn’t addicted or anything but she does it recreationally. Anyway Suzanne is this really sweet person who is just so mellow, she takes my childishness and craziness in like a sponge and i just feel so comfortable around her. she is such an awesome person to chat with and i just enjoy her company in general. if things go well, we might end u realy close friends (unless i screw it up with my stupid mood swings sigh….)

macho farmboy: Scott: The first time I met him, he was really quiet the whole time. It was me, mitch, kenzie, katelyn (asian descent one),and scott had just arrived on campus, missing move-in day and stuff, and he seemed so awkward because he was not with the most masculine crowd in the world lol. well, at least it seemed that way, it is easy to make assumptions innit? anyway you know how i am, i talk to everyone (probably a bad habit i have) and it turns out scott is a really cool guy and really open minded. he deals with my craziness and adds on his own lol!! i swear if me and him team up, we could get someone to commit suicide >:) we have the most random deep coversations and then the most random wicked banters…. such awesomeness. He could be a really close friend. not to mention he so meets all my high school criteria (unique, independant, strong willed, cocky, self confident, good looking, open minded, no weed, no excessive drinking, no cigarettes)!!!! i really hope this friendship is maintained and grows…

sport-obsessed girl: Mackenzie: Really wild tempered “speak my mind” kind of girl, allergic to everything she always retaliates and has a reaction to my craziness yet doesnt seem to want me changed…. she seems cool, i do not see me and her becoming best friends but i can see us being good friends that can hang out occassionally. she is like obsessed with the gym and gymnastics and all that stuff and i am super lazy, yet the friendshp still works

to be alcoholic: Eric: heheheheh, he loves beer like hell haha! but he is a really cool chap, and i find it interesting that he stuck by me even when everyone hated me thanks to a certain rumour bearing skank, but he is a lot more open minded and noncholant. he just is not bothered to be believing the grape vine. he speaks french too (hehehehehhehe that was a huge plus in my book!) . really cool dude though and he adds on to my craziness with his own haha!

party girl: Nadene: well that is not technically true. she studies like hell 6 days a week, but when she does go out to party, she goes WWIIIILLLLDDDDDDDD and it is so cool haha! but she is really nice and friendly though i need to get used to her type of friendship  because she sometimes does things that i dont expect friends to do like leaving me when i am still eating though she sees nothing wrong with it O_o but she seems to honestly be my friend, so i am intrigued.

then there is the endless list of people i smile and wave at and basically make them believe i am a retard. i bet like half the people i have met ask how i got into Queen’s haha! its so unique. i honestly deteste them though. they are not worth my time, but that is something about me that no one here has seen so far, i enjoy playing mental games, and so far they seem to have fallen for it. i am apparently the stereotypical 13 year old indiotic perverted kid  and they seem to be licking it up hand and foot like brainless idiots! it is quite entertaining thoiugh because i now honestly know thier weakpoints, the easiest way to make them hate themselves heheheh. being absolutely serious though, i am getting bored of playing games with them and pretending to be weak but i do have a feeling it is more beneficial for me to appear weak, even though i know i will be the top at the end… i am confused…  what is better? to pretend to be the underdog or to be the top dog the whole way through? i have no clue…

ah well, hence why i need Priveeta’s and Anna’s advice

i started work at the QP

EVERYONE IS SO AWESOME!!!! like i LOVE it!!!! tey make me feel so accepted and loved and stuff! and i feel really good being around the other staff basically, because even when they are not talking to me, they make me feel included.

i think it is just my unique luck that got me onto the kost retarded floor in Queens. the floor with the closed minded idiots who would get massacred if they even left the province of ontario, let alone Canada haha! sigh, i should probably go to sleep and wake up for another day of smile, wave and feigning weakness and stupidity for the fools to lap up like pussywhipped dogs drinking poisoned milk

g’nyt….

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I have actually been having the best time here in university which is really worrying me because something will screw it up… sigh but ah wellll. I saved my roommates life two days ago. w00t me. he was on the floor of our bathroom vomiting on himself and passed out. I got paul to help me carry him and move him to his bed…. i cannot believe drew did something so undignified… ah well. he is entering politics…. bad move lol. i have been considering course changes.

i am trying to think of if i should swithch out of environmental tox to chem… i have met NOONE doing a chem degree which means it isnt common and that sounds tempting to me lol. plus Ali (the indian dude) is considering getting into eTox which is such a turn off loool. i just am kinda depressed at  that. you know how i like to be special but on the pther hand i really should get out of that habit. but ah well,  i really like chemistry, as odd as that sounds yet i also like lots of artsy subjects.,.. so i dunno what to do…. but i wanna double check on my courses coz i wanna drop geo next semester…. but that means environmental ya kno???? and iu need to do physics to get a chem degree which is such a turn off!!!! arghhhhh

anyway ignoring my absolute randomness haha! i am fancying two people…. hm… i just wonder if i should act on it because i dont see myself with these people for more than a few months at most…. like each one brings out a diff side of me. one brimngs out my super playful baby-me side, the other brings out the ” i am an absolute heartless b!tch” side, both sides i love about me but neither side is the complete me…. sigh

i wanna have a cic reunion., i miss some old friends…. which is awesome, I HAVE FRIENDSS HAHAHAHAHHA

yeh turi was a bad life experience….

anyway back to joy. I GOT THE JOB AT THE QUEEN’S PUB!!!!!!!! EEEEKKKKKKKKKKKK SO HAPPPYYYYYY
but now i need to apply for a S.I.N which is really annoying…. sigh… i wish i was canadian… ah well, just 4 more years to wait….

by the way, i said i would write a report on canucks… i will do that later,like after i have visited other [rovinces, because like i said, ontario is like mini-canadian-USA… which is rather crappy so i cant be bothered with such.

by the way: FRENCH HAS WAAAY TOO MANY RAMMER RULKES

il y a les regles avec les choses comme l’ article defini, partitif, indefini… mon Dieu, je ne sais pas quoi je vais faire! je ne sais pas si c’ est possible pour moi d’ apprendre…. et je ne sais pas si ce phrase est correct lol. mais , alors, elle reste une belle langue donc, je dois d’aller… la chimie…. a bientot

PLUS TARD

je suis en classe de geographie… donc je ne suis pas “high on euphoria” comme l’heure avant. ca c’est parce que dans la chimie, je me suis assis pres de le cousin de MacKenzie, mais alors, je n’ aie pas les perssonnes que je sais ne m’ aime pas… donc j’etais enerve lol. mais c’ est tout. mon prof de gepographie est, comme normal, aleatoires lol!!!! maintenant, il parle de “pink spots” …..

It has been another week here at Queen’s Univeristy, and it has not been as bad. I stayed for thanksgiving though the campus was practically empty and it was awesomeness. I remembered why I fell in love with Queen’s in the first place. the weather was gorgeous, I was includedwhenever the 5 remaining people on my floor did stuff, and I befriended one of Eric’s friends (a dude called Vince) who seemed really cool.

Zach scared me the whole weekend. he was drunk like the whole weekend so I avoided him the whole time. That boy gives in waaay to much to his indulgncies. He drinks, he does weed, and worst: he is homophobic… ARGH. Whenever drinks, he gets drunks . I believed i became friends with Paul, though now everyone is back, he doenst really talk to me anymore so whatever… not bothered.

Kumar is another case. DETEST. essentialy, last week thursday i was as sick as a whore in an exorcism! Kumar did not help at all! He was around in res, while I walked towards my job interviews and hospital and stuff, he did not even help me walk there. When I was back, he did not chill with me to make sure I was OK or even just to make me feel better: USELESS INSESITIVE DOUCHE-COW!!!!! argh…. ah well. i suppose i should switch to “smile and wave” mode with him

ANyway it has been a good week. I have been around friends, they have been good to me e.t.c. and even though i am just smile-wave with Zach, Kumar and a few people i am enjoying life again lets hope this keeps up

plus i have a love interest…. more news if it progresses

this week has been rough for the self-esteem…

Other than having my phone cancelled by Britneyś parents and being threatened with fraud, i also missed a class by accident, forgot my bag before french class, and essentially slacked off a bit. I am so tired and i am feeling so overworked, i mean how on earth can i mention to Kumar that i did not bring a change of underwear because i did not think of doing such??? the weather i feel has been against me… oh gosh….

the maths test did not go badly but i would rather see my mark before i comment et le test de français n’a pas été mal… mais alors encore, je veux attendre pour mes résults avant je commente.

I am sleeping over at Kumar’s place today, i need a good time away from uni just to…. take a breather.

I love Queen’s and i do not regret my choice, i just do, however, wish i was managing things better.

wow ça fait longtemps que j’ai ecris! je dois l’écrire en français parce que j’ai un test de français demain et je veux pratiquer, mais alors, je ne sais pas si c’est possible d’étudier un langue… j’ai essayé mais alors…. donc. il y a beaucoup de choses nouveux que j’apprenais de le passé composé! les choses comme le verbes transifs et les verbes intransitifs… mon Dieu, j’ai mal à la tête…. et JE UN TEST DE ÇA DEMAIN!!!! comment puis-je suvivre? mais donc, ce ma vie ouais?

Kumar et moi, on reste les amis, mais il m’a menti, son vrai nom n’est pas “Horoprosag”, c’est juste “Prosad”. je hais quand quelqu’un me ment. zut, d’écrire en français, le français correct et vrai M’ENEERVE!!!! c’est lent et fastidieux! je pense que je vais écrire quelqu’autre chose demain en ANGLAIS!!! ouais, ma première langue!

esperez-moi de chance parce que je l’ai besoin

Since I figure this is the only way I can talk to you one-on-one (though I doubt it because you will show this to someone else judging from the characteristics you eminated last nght) I prefer emails because I get to be more articulate. but now I have to be frank. i do not think I can be friends with you anymore.

All friends have disagreements and that is what I believe we had yesterday. conflicting opinions and clearly very huge cultural differences.yet friends should be able to make up without having to involve anyone else.

Paige & Michelle had bad feelings about me and so we talked it out and now i believe we are friends once more. they did not drag anyone into the fight and they simply saw my point of view and I saw thiers.

With you on the other hand, I expected a talk out because we are two university students, not dumbass high schoolers who cannot think without a crowd of support, and yet when Emma walked in, you jumped at the chance to have people on your side by immediately telling them I called you a slut, and they, being people I dont talk to so they know nothing about me automatically assumed i was harassing you, which you definately gave them the impression of. then later on when you came by my room to talk you knew they were in the hallway and you made the fatal mistake of not telling them to leave, or coming into my room and shutting the door.

I am from Uganda, Ugandan men DO NOT hit girls, NEVER hit girls and would rather be killed than touch one inappropriately. it is the way we are brought up.

Where I am from, “you act like a slut” and “you are a slut” mean two completely different things, and if you were really good with psychology you would understad that automatically when I took the stance that I did not call you  a slut.

Yesterday, when you wanted to have a conversation in  the TV room, around Paige, Paul and Erica, i knew i could never be friends with you. you cannot solve a disagreement on your own, and i know that if I ever had another disagreement with you, you would get people on your side, and I would feel like an outcast on my own floor.

when I was in your room yesterday, my goal was to figure out why you acted so…. like hot&cold, mean girl and holy angel. and rather than hear me out the whole way so that it could be finished in seconds, you jumped at the chance of making me look like a fool.

well, congratulations. I can tell from today onwards I have a lot less possible-friends on this floor because they clearly dislike me after last night, i can also tell that there will be gossip and that i will be looked down upon, and I can thank you for that.

why am i sending you this email? because I still hope we can resolve things one-on-one but judging from what I saw yesterday, I don’t think you will take this opportunity, and instead use this as a means to put me down.

when you said you were catholic, i assumed in all respects. i.e. that you did not judge, you forgave unconditionally. and since you seemed like a fair person, I assumed that if you had issues with anyone, including kumar and scott, that ou would go and explain it to them, hear thier side, and come to a conclusion rather than hate on them.

and just for the record, i do find matt creepy too…. that boy has no morals…

anyway this has been a very long message and I hope you take it the way in which it was intended.

oh, and i forgot to comment on one thing. Courtney, you know next to nothing about me. there are more women in my family than men, there is no way i could be a sexist even if i wanted to, and if u did talk to Kumar or others i chat with, if i think they act like a slut, i tell them. i told kumar he was acting like a sex-depraved whore with the way he ran after anyone in a skirt. dont make assumptions on me that apply to the general male population. the thing about me is, if an assumption is made about me, it is most likely incorrect because those dumb enough to make assumptions are also the ones most ignorant of the persons character.

well, i am hoping to talk to you soon, if not, goodbye.
btw, if your friends stop talking to me because of this incident, i will smile and embrace it. i really am too lazy to be b!tchy.

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It has finally started, that thing that I have been both looking forward to and dreading at the same time, that thing that i have been yearning for so much and at the same time trying to avoid: University.

So far all I have endured is frosh week, and my my does my university have a frosh week full of school traditions, i almost feel like I am in one of  movies that dwell on fraternioties and sororities. university is an amazingly important aspect of ones life, and a university rich with traditions allows a person to become part of that unis community forever. i definately believe i made the right choice of university.

The plane journey here i was filled with butterflies and knots in my stomach. and i met someone on the plane who by chance was in the same residence as me and in the same floor (wing)!!!! his name is Zach…. he is from Regina, Saskatchewan!!! how awesome is that, his accent is quite interesting…. i think i like the sask accent WAY more than the Ontarian one.

Everyone i meet says i have a wonderful accent… its quite interesting really. i never really thought i had and accent and so far the guesses have been dramatically varied from english accent to french accent. its been fun!

I feel so much more at home here than i ever did at cic. there are incredibly FEW black people here yet everyone is so friendly and caring and nice and  sweet and considerate and its just all so amazing and incredible!!! me loves it! canadians in general are awesomeness and I am glad i chose a university with a tiny tiny minority when it comes to international students!

I have never felt so self confident! people here find me attractive and i have had offers of sex and it has been amazing basically! i said no btw… to which ksenia wants to kill me for lol.

I have met openly gay people which has been amazing, this place is so accepting because everywhere else I have been, people have been narrow-minded homophobic retards who have sexuality issues and refuse to believe that people could ever love others of the same sex when it has been scientifically proven.

i have made many friends, all from different descents but all canadian lol. its been quite fun! so far my closest friends are a girl called Courtney, who is from ontario, and a guy called Kumar (Horoprosag) who is like me, from many different country’s but his mum is indian and his dad is russian. me and him are pretty similar with some attitude differences lol. Courtney really is as smart as her high school 96% average. she realised i wasn’t as dumbas i acted and tried to get me to open up.

i met this amazing girl called Kenzie who has helped me out SO much that it has been unbelievable!!!!

i love EVERYTHING about tis place! i even got invited to do varsity rowing!!!! this is all so incredible!!!! i have never felt so happy to be myself….

as usual though, i hate my roommate…. he is american…. and he is such a frat boy wannab… and i am 60% sure he is gay (i dont hate him because of that but he seemslike he is trying waaaaaaaaaaaaaaay to hard to be straight!)

I really cant wait to meet my girl….. the one for me…. but i have met such amazing people… you never know

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